perks of summer thusfar:

• paying for my own rent/expenses. growing up~~
• getting paid to sit in front of my computer for 17 hours/wk doing nothing but watch the bachelorette/korean dramas
• dates! but not the edible kind:p
• free time to go to the gym. so far only about once a week...hahaha
• free food (while working in food service)
• low-stress summer course
• more opportunities to pamper oneself
• warm weather, of course!
• room to imagine/scheme for the future
• experiencing God's gift of rest~~
• discovering cuban roast coffee @ espresso royale cafe (to get me through days that start at 6am)
• things to integrate:
• more cello
• more exercise
• more leisure reading!
• this list isn't that long
• I guess I'm extremely content!
• PTL.
• :)

“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him”

Job 13:15

Thoughts from a recovering rain cloud

this morning I woke up at 6:30am (a rare occasion for someone who averages 8-10 hrs) and headed for the chapel with a friend. it would be perfect to start all mornings like this, but I can't seem to wake up on my own. thankfully my future roommate and I share a willingness to give up sleep for prayer--so there's hope for more mornings like this in the future.

after leaving the chapel a friend bought me a specialty drink from starbuck's. I am savoring this gracious gift in the form of a tall toffee nut latte. because of the $ situation I'm not as comfortable treating myself to the same luxuries I took for granted in the past--which has been humbling for certain.... heaviness aside, isn't it wonderful how tastes (and smells) can take you back to a different time?

I cried like a maniac this week, hence the title. when I'm with people survival-mode-cheerfulness kicks in, but when I'm alone its raining pretty hard. was reflecting on things in the chapel this morning and determined (and confessed) that I've lacked the confident trust in my Lord to free me from the agony of loneliness/isolation... a sentiment I've struggled with for a long time now.

here to end this post, I introduce the gorgeous handmade products that I've selected and stored in the vacant rooms of my imagination. handmade 'leaf' flowers fairy lights, light strand, string lights, romantic floral themed. for weddings, home decor, magical white rose light string. here's the link. and a birch tree clock. also linked.

imparting blessings in the name of Christ Jesus.

dear neglected blog,

I will be sure to update you regularly as soon as this semester is history.

love,
esther

bcbg printed organza dress

pretty.

feeling only slightly bad for beheading the model to emphasis the dress. oops.

~here's the link :)